Rich ppl r busy

WTF.

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Been feeling like this for quite a while.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years

Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal
For the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could
Steady feet, don't fail me now
I'm gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I'e become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need
What you need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

(stop and stare - one republic)


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Dreadful

I was planning for my time off and annual leave, a supposedly joyful activity was a dreadful ordeal to accomplish.

My time is limited and my rest is compromised by the amt of predictable work I have to complete before I leave for Cambodia.

On the car ride back to office with a colleague, he reflected that the workload is actually very manageable at our organisation. I don't know if i feel the same; it's either I'm being a whiney brat or there might be a problem with my productivity.

But, whatever...

Another worthless post.

In love..

I am a techy. :p

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loneliness

i got this off the show that i'm currently watching, this particular phrase which the guy said made me pause and i realise i really liked the way he expressed himself...


"在遇上你之前，我都是我行我素...

在遇上你之候，我开始懂得什么叫孤单...

这是种好的变化，还是种怀的变化，我已经再也分不清..."


he never realised what was missing until he met her. what if he never did?


is emptiness/loneliness a state of mind?

stubborn or just being plain stupid...

people who sees me often wld know how much i want to get a new phone... but up til now, i'm still stuck with my sony ericsson z610i. the last i checked, the trade-in value is $10, it's pretty much a worthless phone by now.

with all the big hoo haa about iphone, it is definitely one very very convenient choice. it's cheaper now, it is very user friendly, it's whatever you want of a phone, except for the size.

i'm convince how great iphone is, i really am. but... out of spite? or stubborness? i don't know, but there's this feeling deep down that the more desirable (perceived) it is, the less likely that i'd pick it up.

i know this probably has no link, but i simply not ready to conform (disclaim: no offense to iphone users). to be honest, i rather get a htc or another sony or even LG (no offense to LG users (and why am i doing this on my own blog?)). almost 40% of the people i know has an iphone.

i hate being a follower... but we're all followers in one way or another whether we like it or not. the only way out is to isolate ourselves from the rest of the world and start believing that we live in vacuum of others. whilst i may be a 宅女 in many ways, but still believe in human interactions.

then again what has this got to do with whether i'm getting iphone or not?

the link isn't very clear, but who cares.




wikipedia has an iphone, it makes me more hesitant to get it.



i was thinking htc magic, but vin the man say it sucks...



stubborness gets nobody anywhere...

are you happy?

these few days of unexpected break really did gave me ample time to think about stuffs. stuffs about life, about work... about relationship...

some ppl may say if u believe in what u are doing ur pay don't matter, but what if one day u find that u are not earning enough; u start noticing how miserable ur pay is, how your office culture disgust you, does it mean that u dun believe in what you do anymore?

i believe it's hardly the case, but we've all got to face it... can passion alone feed u? (of cos we are not talking about lawyers, doctors and the likes of it..)

at the end of the day, if you are hungry; be it biological, psychologically or socially, 'happiness' is far-fetch.

are you happy?

being immerse in work has made me oblivious to things that are happening in my life. even though at the back of my mind, i know these people will always be there. sometimes i would talk myself into believing that they are, too, busy with their own life. but isn't it how, people gradually grow apart?

the truth is, i know people around me are being very understanding of the circumstance that i am in. there is also the 'expectation' that they would be, as they can see for themselves how much time i spend at work. i admit that i had said things like "i'm so tired, why dun they understand?" but on hindsight, I also asked myself, am i also being understanding to them?

it just so happens that when time is at stake, between all the other commitments, somehow work has to come first, by default. it's usually your friends and family's time being compromised. you then comfort yourself by say 'i'll make it a point to hang out with them next week'. but by next week, you'll say 'i finally got a weekend off, maybe i should just spend it doing nothing'.

all those talks about work-life balance... unless you make work your life... otherwise... i really have no idea how anyone can get away with it.

the answer is.. i'm grateful for the nice people i meet at work who makes it easier to bear... but i believe i can be happier...

hence...

it's really only a matter of time.

i just have to decide how soon.

take a good look around...

the world does not revolve around you

everybody deserves a living...

please give us a break

对‘有钱人’的看法

所谓的‘有钱人’有两种

一中是靠自己的血汗换来的，对这些人，我非常佩服。但也要对他们说声‘don't forget how you got there’

另外一种是我个人非常有意见的，那就是‘含着金钥匙出生’的那一类型。

以为自己‘老北’，‘老布’有几个臭钱就拽个不行。

一副瞧不起人的嘴脸，说话没有分寸，以为有钱就可以解决问题，真的很令人憎恶。

做人‘aga aga’就好。

厉害自己去赚啦！





*三字经*

harvest

you know you have done something good when...




in the beginning,

(first 5 min of the home visit)

"你要走了没有?"


now,

(after an hour)

"你要走了meh? 这么快?"


this is when I know it's harvest time; time to reap the good seeds that i've sowed.

all the hard work, indeed paid off, and it's worth every minute of my miserable life.

now its just time to make sure that I keep the weevils away; away from contamination.