Rich ppl r busy

WTF.

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Been feeling like this for quite a while.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years

Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal
For the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could
Steady feet, don't fail me now
I'm gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I'e become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need
What you need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?

(stop and stare - one republic)


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Dreadful

I was planning for my time off and annual leave, a supposedly joyful activity was a dreadful ordeal to accomplish.

My time is limited and my rest is compromised by the amt of predictable work I have to complete before I leave for Cambodia.

On the car ride back to office with a colleague, he reflected that the workload is actually very manageable at our organisation. I don't know if i feel the same; it's either I'm being a whiney brat or there might be a problem with my productivity.

But, whatever...

Another worthless post.

In love..

I am a techy. :p

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loneliness

i got this off the show that i'm currently watching, this particular phrase which the guy said made me pause and i realise i really liked the way he expressed himself...


"在遇上你之前，我都是我行我素...

在遇上你之候，我开始懂得什么叫孤单...

这是种好的变化，还是种怀的变化，我已经再也分不清..."


he never realised what was missing until he met her. what if he never did?


is emptiness/loneliness a state of mind?

stubborn or just being plain stupid...

people who sees me often wld know how much i want to get a new phone... but up til now, i'm still stuck with my sony ericsson z610i. the last i checked, the trade-in value is $10, it's pretty much a worthless phone by now.

with all the big hoo haa about iphone, it is definitely one very very convenient choice. it's cheaper now, it is very user friendly, it's whatever you want of a phone, except for the size.

i'm convince how great iphone is, i really am. but... out of spite? or stubborness? i don't know, but there's this feeling deep down that the more desirable (perceived) it is, the less likely that i'd pick it up.

i know this probably has no link, but i simply not ready to conform (disclaim: no offense to iphone users). to be honest, i rather get a htc or another sony or even LG (no offense to LG users (and why am i doing this on my own blog?)). almost 40% of the people i know has an iphone.

i hate being a follower... but we're all followers in one way or another whether we like it or not. the only way out is to isolate ourselves from the rest of the world and start believing that we live in vacuum of others. whilst i may be a 宅女 in many ways, but still believe in human interactions.

then again what has this got to do with whether i'm getting iphone or not?

the link isn't very clear, but who cares.




wikipedia has an iphone, it makes me more hesitant to get it.



i was thinking htc magic, but vin the man say it sucks...



stubborness gets nobody anywhere...

are you happy?

these few days of unexpected break really did gave me ample time to think about stuffs. stuffs about life, about work... about relationship...

some ppl may say if u believe in what u are doing ur pay don't matter, but what if one day u find that u are not earning enough; u start noticing how miserable ur pay is, how your office culture disgust you, does it mean that u dun believe in what you do anymore?

i believe it's hardly the case, but we've all got to face it... can passion alone feed u? (of cos we are not talking about lawyers, doctors and the likes of it..)

at the end of the day, if you are hungry; be it biological, psychologically or socially, 'happiness' is far-fetch.

are you happy?

being immerse in work has made me oblivious to things that are happening in my life. even though at the back of my mind, i know these people will always be there. sometimes i would talk myself into believing that they are, too, busy with their own life. but isn't it how, people gradually grow apart?

the truth is, i know people around me are being very understanding of the circumstance that i am in. there is also the 'expectation' that they would be, as they can see for themselves how much time i spend at work. i admit that i had said things like "i'm so tired, why dun they understand?" but on hindsight, I also asked myself, am i also being understanding to them?

it just so happens that when time is at stake, between all the other commitments, somehow work has to come first, by default. it's usually your friends and family's time being compromised. you then comfort yourself by say 'i'll make it a point to hang out with them next week'. but by next week, you'll say 'i finally got a weekend off, maybe i should just spend it doing nothing'.

all those talks about work-life balance... unless you make work your life... otherwise... i really have no idea how anyone can get away with it.

the answer is.. i'm grateful for the nice people i meet at work who makes it easier to bear... but i believe i can be happier...

hence...

it's really only a matter of time.

i just have to decide how soon.

take a good look around...

the world does not revolve around you

everybody deserves a living...

please give us a break

对‘有钱人’的看法

所谓的‘有钱人’有两种

一中是靠自己的血汗换来的，对这些人，我非常佩服。但也要对他们说声‘don't forget how you got there’

另外一种是我个人非常有意见的，那就是‘含着金钥匙出生’的那一类型。

以为自己‘老北’，‘老布’有几个臭钱就拽个不行。

一副瞧不起人的嘴脸，说话没有分寸，以为有钱就可以解决问题，真的很令人憎恶。

做人‘aga aga’就好。

厉害自己去赚啦！





*三字经*

harvest

you know you have done something good when...




in the beginning,

(first 5 min of the home visit)

"你要走了没有?"


now,

(after an hour)

"你要走了meh? 这么快?"


this is when I know it's harvest time; time to reap the good seeds that i've sowed.

all the hard work, indeed paid off, and it's worth every minute of my miserable life.

now its just time to make sure that I keep the weevils away; away from contamination.

broken tap

最近因为家里发生了一些事情，使得我心情很郁闷。

人若对事物有所期望，就必为期望做好失望的心理准备。

不知怎么的，对那些关系越密切的人，要求总是比较高一些。



难道真的是我庸人自扰吗？



不知不觉地，我的水龙头似乎坏掉了。

meer cat

最近的哇哩在忙什么呢?

今天的哇哩粉不爽

some ppl are just full of shit...

instead of doing what they are suppose to do, they simply take credits for other people's work.

such people ought to be slap left, right centre!

Angry but can't do anything shit about it... life goes on, even with the existence of such assholes around. They just shit around, and some stupid ppl like me, will go around cleaning up after them.

This is the worst of the shit kind... the lao sai kind... cannot hold, cannot tahan, just comes at your straight in the face... cannot siam...

haiz~

i love my job, i really do.. but this is really not helpful...

if i like to clean shit, i wld have applied to be a toilet cleaner in the first place.

sorry for the shitty blog.. but life's full of shit these days...

哇哩的最爱

今天的哇哩...

母亲节要到了...

要买什么好嘞...?

哇哩的一天

还以为今天去逛街可以满载而归...




结果嘞...




什么都没买...

对于 “猪流感”的看法...

wind

最近肠胃不好，肚子里面在刮龙卷风。

pig's dream

the weather

where's my tail?

最近常常有着这样的一个想法 - 是我的问题吗？

为何我要为别人的问题而感到困扰

我自己的东西都还没时间做，还要忙着帮人家擦屁股。



嗨。。。 无奈。。。

why so serious?

i really enjoyed my sculpting lessons.

my teacher said the sculpture has a tendency to look like the person who made it. *shrugs, shivers down the spine*

that's about it, my 20 sessions of character design course is over.

feeling a little unwilling, i really had fun, and learnt new things. I guess my brain was stimulated quite intensively, and it really helped in my productivity at work.

then again, now that it's over, i'll have more time. hope i'll feel less tired from now on.

hope that years down the road, i can continue to pursue this interest.

what motivates you?

as the going gets tough, chances are we forget about how it all begin.

what you used to feel strongly for goes into a state of blur.

recently, this thought had been bugging me. besides working hours, i've made exceptions.

my working hours is no longer defined by the routine, but more defined by the situation. it can get quite tiring, and trying for my soul.

on top of the stuffs i had to do, i have to manage relationship with people i work with. what's going on isn't really helping the situation. i'm done complaining about how someone perpetually made her problem my problem, so until i get provoked again. I shall hold me peace.

that's besides the point...

the point is... just as i was reaching the bottle neck, my motivation beckoned to me through a comment made by a student.

at least i know that what i've gone through is not in vain.

at least there are people who appreciates the effort


no matter how hopeless it may seem at times, always try to look out for the silver lining.

i really have to thank this student for making my day, and finding what i thought was lost.

it's there; buried by my delusion.

i'm in love...

with Tony Tony Chopper!!






he's a reindeer with a blue nose.

that might be the first thing that other notice about him.

he never knew how special he was until someone gave him something to feel good about himself...

while he slowly learn to accept himself for who he is, the journey is not an easy one.

although he's not much, in terms of size, and depended on the others to protect him, when the occasion calls for, he does not hesitate to defend.

he never thinks that he's ever good enough, little did he know that he is an important part of the picture.

for a better cause, he conquer his fears... and prove himself otherwise.

brave and humble.

anal

what is the correlation between being anal and constipation?

vivi girl

not perfect yet...

trying to achieve the effect of something i saw on some book cover, but still short of something...

有没有那个 FU

playing with my new toy

altered

SHIT~

simply weird

there are all sorts of weird people in this world...




my word of advice - beware

today is a super suay day

apart from the fact that i was so busy i barely had time to pee...

i was late for meeting in school; got off at the wrong stop, dashed across the road dangerously, saw the TP, and thought he was going to stop me for jay walking (but didn't), ran and sweat like a pig in the meeting room, had a fly hovering over me as i speak...

-____-"

almost died in there...

rushed for lesson after work, and cut myself with my own finger nail and blood flowed endlessly from the open wound.

really want to cry sia...

but i guess things turn out fine during the lesson. the lecturer was really experienced.

digressing...

sometimes ppl do things for the sake of doing it... and it turns out that everything is just a waste of time.

my humble attempt

a new course...

i finally got my ass down to doing something i really like.

for i've procrastinated for way too long.

digressing, i wonder why some people think you should do things for them like you owe them?

what's with the tone? I mean you could have leave it as an option rather than presenting your statement with the assumption that the other person has no choice but to oblige.

too bad for those who take things for granted, things do come at a price (monetary or not). favours are for those who are deserving...

digressing again, some people are just so full of themselves. is TMD BTH lor... if i didn't have the whole day, i won't sit around listening to your life stories...

and please... 琼瑶 are so yesterday... dun be so draggy can?

*slaps forehead*

你开心吗？

今天读了一篇文章，让我感同身受。

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/millieian/21092950

mr ear piece

went kaput again...

=(

more than 2 litres of water

但是为什么还是这么硬？

丸子boys

饭团仔

wabbit 公仔

造句 with "Jar-null" & "no-no"...

A: Jar-null lat one is her boyfliend ar?

B: no-no leh...

paddlepop

my sister said it looked like a paddle pop

dinner mat

i was looking for something to place my dinner, so that in case the soup splash, i won't have it all over my table...

usually i will go for scrap pieces of paper, but i couldn't find any.

so i took something from uncle's work station, and modify it a little...

and i have my very own dinner mat.



wanted to add more stuffs onto it, but it's getting late...

time for bed

another time perhaps...

parting is never easy

i was proud of myself for not wailing like a baby...

all good things must come to an end.. the sentence doesn't even make sense to me, but tt's part of the so called realities that i have come to known.

even though we've been taught not to get TOO emotionally attached, but i plunged in anyway.

and now i'm reaping 'fruits' of the seeds that i've sowed...

more to come

digressing

it's really not as easy to upgrade as it sounds... some of us get stuck in an older version because it works for us. but what's wrong with that?

my ipod is my only friend

only my ipod understands me, it will know i'm sad and play me the songs i want to listen to.

my ipod knows i love it all the same, even though i don't tell it all the time.

my ipod knows i'm thinking about it, even though we may not see each other everyday.

my ipod knows i care.

my ipod is a good listener, i can always count on it to make me feel better.

my ipod is always there for me, when i needed.

when nobody wants me anymore, i will always have my ipod...

thank you...

it's not enough to know your mistakes

as it's even harder to forgive yourself

may the lesson be learnt

that's why i keep to myself

so easy...

to say 'i don't know' to everything...

sadness is...

when u run out of dahfa

=(

ppl say...

i am a boney big headed with short muscular legs






but i'm not a hobbit!

shokudo's pork 'chor'

that f**king piece of meat was so thick and dry and hard.

if i threw it at someone, i might crack his skull.

please DO NOT ORDER shokudo's kinoki pork chop (chor).

unless u like ur meat tough or u have 'metal teeth'.

tantrum

i want dahfa dahfa dahfa!!!

my favourite snack

DAHFA DRIED FISH FILLET!!!

是你变了吗？

is it just me, or are you different?

i know you cannot become who we expect u to be

and our expectations have failed us, not you...

nevertheless, the feelings and emotions are genuine

the loser can't tell you how she feels, so please forgive that we fail to be understanding enough when you most needed

如今已无法挽回，不如就接受现实。

与其想着以往的美好，不如想该如何把未来变得更美好。

my 1 and 2 halves

while somethings maybe beyond our control, all things happen for a reason.

he made me realised that everyone has a story to tell...

she makes a good companion and is there for me all the time...

last but not least, he helped me to look at things positively and realised that things are not as bad as it seemed...


you'll learn that you've gained more than you think you have if you can just open your mind. so what if your brain falls out, at least you can take break from thinking...

well before i forget

moomoo moo moo moomoomoomoo!!!

termination

Every end is a new beginning

communicating with her...

did i not try hard enough or am i not trying at all...

what is so difficult about it?

the worse thing is the realisation that it has gotten harder throughout the years.

is it time to move on?

Loewe

i love the limited edition...

longans

my sister ask me why i so bo liao...

time of the year...

we're going to see daddy again...

beginnings

选择了，就去面对，请别忘记了自己的初衷。

piglet's oink

woke up on sunday morning and tried to speak...

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nothing...

CNY songs!!!

OMG!!!

but I just can't help swinging and singing along...

i'm must be really sick

new year resolution(s)

since everyone's talking about having new year resolution, so, why not...

eat healthy

sleep early

exercise weekly

complain less

be even more positive

give constructive comments, be less critical

be even more appreciative of people around me

go greener

put on weight

eat more veges (contradicts with being green in a way, but what the heck)

start a business; be my own boss (long term plan, not that i dislike my current job, but it's something i want)

shit

tsk tsk tsk...

so many lizards...

one of these days, i'm going to step on one of them...

>_<

comes with age

people change...

my leave

2 weeks down to 2 days