but you can't ignore it...
because it's unsightly and it stinks...
my bling
Friday, December 12, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
lost
is when u have second thoughts about what you do..
when u don't know what you do is good enough.
it's when u think u should have done something else, but don't know what...
is when the uneasiness haunt your waking hours and affect ur sleep...
when u don't know what you do is good enough.
it's when u think u should have done something else, but don't know what...
is when the uneasiness haunt your waking hours and affect ur sleep...
Friday, November 14, 2008
i've been busy...
trying to find something.
what i was trying to find...
was me...
so did you find it?
no, not yet...
what i was trying to find...
was me...
so did you find it?
no, not yet...
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
8 hrs
is the (average) time we spend asleep...
but the impact of this mere 8 hrs on the 16 hrs we spend awake is far greater than you can ever imagine...
but the impact of this mere 8 hrs on the 16 hrs we spend awake is far greater than you can ever imagine...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
new environment...
be careful what you wished for... it may just happen.
i dunno if it's a good 'move', but i guess there's no turning back for now. At least for the next 2 years. So we shall just see what happens.
perhaps if i keep an open mind, i may reap more than what i think i wld...
nevertheless, a small part in me is at peace finally.
apart from the new environment, my life have been quite interesting recently. i found answers to some of the lingering questions.
i now know the truth of patience...
i dunno if it's a good 'move', but i guess there's no turning back for now. At least for the next 2 years. So we shall just see what happens.
perhaps if i keep an open mind, i may reap more than what i think i wld...
nevertheless, a small part in me is at peace finally.
apart from the new environment, my life have been quite interesting recently. i found answers to some of the lingering questions.
i now know the truth of patience...
Friday, September 26, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye) [x3]
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye) [x3]
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
Sunday, September 7, 2008
the dilemma of desire... and the reality
i saw a pair of shoes that i like a few months ago, but i didn't buy it...
the next time i want to get a pair of shoes, i went back to the same place, but it's not there anymore.
i looked high and low with the hope of finding the same pair or something similar, but no such luck...
few months later, i found a similar pair. for the fear of missing it again, i bought it.
but, the more i look at it, i asked myself, do i really like it that much?
now... the question is...
do i want to look pretty in a pair of uncomfortable shoes, or should i settle for otherwise?
we think we do... but do we really know what we want?
as i reflect back, i realised that i've been trying to live up to a self fulfilling prophecy that is constructed by none other than yours truly.
what is the reality? whose reality? how is this reality significant to me?
i had the chance, but i did not grab it. i didin't know i want it so badly until i realise what i've been doing to find it. when i finally found it, and got it, it doesn't seem to be what i want. having it doesn't change the fact that i still don't have what i want... what am i looking for now?
the next time i want to get a pair of shoes, i went back to the same place, but it's not there anymore.
i looked high and low with the hope of finding the same pair or something similar, but no such luck...
few months later, i found a similar pair. for the fear of missing it again, i bought it.
but, the more i look at it, i asked myself, do i really like it that much?
now... the question is...
do i want to look pretty in a pair of uncomfortable shoes, or should i settle for otherwise?
we think we do... but do we really know what we want?
as i reflect back, i realised that i've been trying to live up to a self fulfilling prophecy that is constructed by none other than yours truly.
what is the reality? whose reality? how is this reality significant to me?
i had the chance, but i did not grab it. i didin't know i want it so badly until i realise what i've been doing to find it. when i finally found it, and got it, it doesn't seem to be what i want. having it doesn't change the fact that i still don't have what i want... what am i looking for now?
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
i'm a bull frog...
You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware; it is easy for you to fall in love....
so freaking true can!
*ribbit ribbit*
so freaking true can!
*ribbit ribbit*
Sunday, August 17, 2008
想象和现实总是有着一定的距离
想得再美，也是空欢喜一场
要的得不到，不想得到的却迎面而来，散也散不掉
what to do?
就只能时而望梅止渴，时而 act blur...
在不然就让悲愤化成力量，全神贯注的做我最擅长的，再说一些欺骗自己的话语敷衍了事
过了今天，明天还是得面对
逃避是暂时的办法，希望能早日得到释放
要的得不到，不想得到的却迎面而来，散也散不掉
what to do?
就只能时而望梅止渴，时而 act blur...
在不然就让悲愤化成力量，全神贯注的做我最擅长的，再说一些欺骗自己的话语敷衍了事
过了今天，明天还是得面对
逃避是暂时的办法，希望能早日得到释放
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
coming with age...
less mindful of how others look at or think about me
bolder with your words, definitely thicker skin
stop beating around the bush
probably have fewer acquaintance but more friends
need more sleep
prefer warm drinks to cold
stay at home more
weaker immune system
start liking food like 'dao gua', 'dao pok', 'dao kee', etc.
appreciate the people around me more
feels like I have less than 24hrs a day, and constantly need more time
want to look for partners who can provide a sense of security (emotionally, financially.. in almost every aspect), looks are probably still important for that first impression, but fades after that initial stage.
immaturity annoys me
bimbotic songs are for comic relief; tend to like songs with lyrics that I can relate to
probably don't care whether the person reading my blog now agrees with what i've written so far
but... i still love piglet!!
^_^
bolder with your words, definitely thicker skin
stop beating around the bush
probably have fewer acquaintance but more friends
need more sleep
prefer warm drinks to cold
stay at home more
weaker immune system
start liking food like 'dao gua', 'dao pok', 'dao kee', etc.
appreciate the people around me more
feels like I have less than 24hrs a day, and constantly need more time
want to look for partners who can provide a sense of security (emotionally, financially.. in almost every aspect), looks are probably still important for that first impression, but fades after that initial stage.
immaturity annoys me
bimbotic songs are for comic relief; tend to like songs with lyrics that I can relate to
probably don't care whether the person reading my blog now agrees with what i've written so far
but... i still love piglet!!
^_^
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
i'm finally going!
booked the tix for the vietnam trip on saturday's natas fair.
not as cheap as i have imagined it to be, but this is the only way that can get us to where we want.
a part of me still can't believe it's really happening, but it's something that i've been wanting to do for a long time.
jy was right when she said that we shld go with an open mind, not to expect too much.
^_^
not as cheap as i have imagined it to be, but this is the only way that can get us to where we want.
a part of me still can't believe it's really happening, but it's something that i've been wanting to do for a long time.
jy was right when she said that we shld go with an open mind, not to expect too much.
^_^
Monday, July 28, 2008
你只有一个
你看你眉头都打结了
你熟悉的坚韧到哪去了
别因时光而磨损
快找回那自信的眼神
不要因为爱错了一个人
就否决爱美好的可能
不管如何
都不要忘记你是最好的
要相信
你绝对有幸福的资格
你只有一个独一无二
他不懂珍惜是他太笨
有多少人等着
要做你最最在乎的人
你只有一个那么独特
你值得你期盼的快乐
当你不再非他不可了
一定会找到珍惜你的人
全世界就非要你不可
你熟悉的坚韧到哪去了
别因时光而磨损
快找回那自信的眼神
不要因为爱错了一个人
就否决爱美好的可能
不管如何
都不要忘记你是最好的
要相信
你绝对有幸福的资格
你只有一个独一无二
他不懂珍惜是他太笨
有多少人等着
要做你最最在乎的人
你只有一个那么独特
你值得你期盼的快乐
当你不再非他不可了
一定会找到珍惜你的人
全世界就非要你不可
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Garlic
i seriously think i'm allergic to it. even though i have no clinically proven it to be so.
not only does it make the breathe stinks overnight, it churns up everything else that's in me. I even gag when i could taste the slightest of it...
my english goes all hay wired when i talk about it.
that's how allergic i am to it. I shall never ever be associated with that potent little thing (if i can help it) as of today.
shoo garlic.. shoo shoo... go get a life...
not only does it make the breathe stinks overnight, it churns up everything else that's in me. I even gag when i could taste the slightest of it...
my english goes all hay wired when i talk about it.
that's how allergic i am to it. I shall never ever be associated with that potent little thing (if i can help it) as of today.
shoo garlic.. shoo shoo... go get a life...
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
miss invisible..
Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...
Chorus
Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name
The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...
Chorus
Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name
And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...
Chorus
Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name
The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...
Chorus
Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name
And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
what makes me happy?
waking up from a good night of rest
great weather
hitting the high pitch of a song that i've been trying to for a long time
no. 123 and 65
good hair days
good complexion days
laughters
crying without having to hold back
knowing the people i care for are safe
great food
catching a good movie
spending quality time with family and friends
shopping
getting what i want without having to ask for it
i don't get cramps at that time of the month
no coughs or flu
knowing that someone out there cares for me
time offs
when i get inspirations
be appreciated
when i discover a new scent of perfume
love and be love..
great weather
hitting the high pitch of a song that i've been trying to for a long time
no. 123 and 65
good hair days
good complexion days
laughters
crying without having to hold back
knowing the people i care for are safe
great food
catching a good movie
spending quality time with family and friends
shopping
getting what i want without having to ask for it
i don't get cramps at that time of the month
no coughs or flu
knowing that someone out there cares for me
time offs
when i get inspirations
be appreciated
when i discover a new scent of perfume
love and be love..
Monday, June 23, 2008
discovering a new side of me...
not sure if i'm into this evolution and revelation of myself, but i'm starting to feel a change in the way i think and the response that follows.
the change is not drastic, yet i am able to feel the impact of it.
being the placater for the most part of my life, i feel that i often discredit myself by allowing my own views to be subdue by overpowering voices.
perhaps as time passes, i've also realised the redundancy of trying to please everyone but myself. time is obviously not in my favour, trying too hard in maintaining that status quo is not a pragmatic move for now.
despite what the others might think about me, an evaluation of my current position portrays myself as someone who lacks vigor.
wonder if this could also mean a progressive shift of my framework in relation to the way i live my life, that will potentially reap outcomes that are less demeaning for me as an individual.
the change is not drastic, yet i am able to feel the impact of it.
being the placater for the most part of my life, i feel that i often discredit myself by allowing my own views to be subdue by overpowering voices.
perhaps as time passes, i've also realised the redundancy of trying to please everyone but myself. time is obviously not in my favour, trying too hard in maintaining that status quo is not a pragmatic move for now.
despite what the others might think about me, an evaluation of my current position portrays myself as someone who lacks vigor.
wonder if this could also mean a progressive shift of my framework in relation to the way i live my life, that will potentially reap outcomes that are less demeaning for me as an individual.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Friday, June 20, 2008
women are picky? think again...
it has been scientifically proven that men are capable of producing 300 million sperms in a day...
but
women produces only 1 egg a month...
but
women produces only 1 egg a month...
Thursday, June 19, 2008
personal space...
i realised that a lot of people are not aware of the importance of personal space...
for e.g. in crowded place; such as the train and the lifts.
don't stand so close can?
for e.g. in crowded place; such as the train and the lifts.
don't stand so close can?
Monday, June 16, 2008
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
爱自己
there's nothing wrong with being nice to yourself, and loving yourself...
however, it becomes a little twisted when in the process of loving yourself, u overlooked the necessity to look out for those around you.
being immerse in your own world, and talking about yourself all time...
yes we already know how good you are... aren't you interested in anything else?
yet, i wonder if it's the effect of wanting to be loved, that you can't get it from others, so these people tend to make it up by loving themselves more, thus the vicious cycle of allowing the whole world know how much you love yourself, and despising people who yearn to be love by others.
probably doesn't make sense...
but this person i know told me that," people need others to love them, because they don't love themselves..."
to me that's bullshit...
it may be the desirable respond to people who are desperately looking for a partner or soul mate...
but not what a pragmatic person like me would consider as an acceptable respond in any other circumstances. i can't stand people who are OVERLY idealistic... i think it's really just a crap load of shit... (just my humble opinion, please don't quote me otherwise)
then again, we're all different, and on the same note, please don't think that the others should conform to the norms that you hold on to so dearly with your life...
however, it becomes a little twisted when in the process of loving yourself, u overlooked the necessity to look out for those around you.
being immerse in your own world, and talking about yourself all time...
yes we already know how good you are... aren't you interested in anything else?
yet, i wonder if it's the effect of wanting to be loved, that you can't get it from others, so these people tend to make it up by loving themselves more, thus the vicious cycle of allowing the whole world know how much you love yourself, and despising people who yearn to be love by others.
probably doesn't make sense...
but this person i know told me that," people need others to love them, because they don't love themselves..."
to me that's bullshit...
it may be the desirable respond to people who are desperately looking for a partner or soul mate...
but not what a pragmatic person like me would consider as an acceptable respond in any other circumstances. i can't stand people who are OVERLY idealistic... i think it's really just a crap load of shit... (just my humble opinion, please don't quote me otherwise)
then again, we're all different, and on the same note, please don't think that the others should conform to the norms that you hold on to so dearly with your life...
说者无心，听者有意...
it's true how the tone of one's speech can be potentially fatal if not related appropriately to the person you are communicating with.
that's when a break down occur.
especially when one party has experienced the other party negatively before.
misinterpretation creeps in and become a feature of the conversation between the 2.
it's scary to see something like this happening right before your eyes and yet can do nothing about.
that's when a break down occur.
especially when one party has experienced the other party negatively before.
misinterpretation creeps in and become a feature of the conversation between the 2.
it's scary to see something like this happening right before your eyes and yet can do nothing about.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
an opportunity
only i didn't make the best of it...
what are the chances of it happening again?
really feel like kicking myself.
what are the chances of it happening again?
really feel like kicking myself.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
leaving
just got to know that one of my colleague has tendered her resignation...
i knew it's a matter of time that she will go down that path, but didn't expect it to be so soon.
was rendered speechless momentarily as she was my supervisor when i was on placement.
in a way, she's more than just someone who monitors my progress, she's a mentor, a friend, and most of all, someone i look up to.
the coming friday will be her last day...
i don't know what to say to her...
such complex emotions...
i hope i don't cry...
i knew it's a matter of time that she will go down that path, but didn't expect it to be so soon.
was rendered speechless momentarily as she was my supervisor when i was on placement.
in a way, she's more than just someone who monitors my progress, she's a mentor, a friend, and most of all, someone i look up to.
the coming friday will be her last day...
i don't know what to say to her...
such complex emotions...
i hope i don't cry...
lift
do you ever wonder why anyone would want to wait for the lift to come all the way down from the 18th floor, when they are only staying on the 2nd floor?
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
passion vs stability
if only we can all gain one from the other... it would've have been ideal.
nevertheless, life goes on.
nevertheless, life goes on.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
最漫长的。。。
是等待奇迹的出现...
是忘记你最舍不得的人...
是原谅对不起你的人...
是谅解和接纳你身边的人的所作所为...
是了解自己...
是习惯靠着回忆过日子...
是从逆境中寻找希望...
是跌倒了然后再勇敢的爬起来...
是承认自己的过错...
是坦诚地面对并且接受自己的懦弱...
是忘记你最舍不得的人...
是原谅对不起你的人...
是谅解和接纳你身边的人的所作所为...
是了解自己...
是习惯靠着回忆过日子...
是从逆境中寻找希望...
是跌倒了然后再勇敢的爬起来...
是承认自己的过错...
是坦诚地面对并且接受自己的懦弱...
is the grass really greener on the other side?
does the problem lies with the patch of grass? or is it the person who's looking after it?
before we look at the grass on the other side and think that it's greener, perhaps we should first consider the reasons why your grass is not as green?
before we look at the grass on the other side and think that it's greener, perhaps we should first consider the reasons why your grass is not as green?
Friday, March 21, 2008
dumbstrucked
a few days ago, i came across this piece of news on the paper.
the indonesia polis furnished their views on the mas selamat incident. They believe that he is definitely still in singapore.
that's because...
if he was in indonesia, he would have been caught by now (the exact words from mypaper).
the indonesia polis furnished their views on the mas selamat incident. They believe that he is definitely still in singapore.
that's because...
if he was in indonesia, he would have been caught by now (the exact words from mypaper).
Thursday, March 20, 2008
disease of neglect
when you don't take care of your pet, they get scabies...
when you don't take care of your child, they get gutus (in case there are people out there who wonder what it means, its head lice).
when you don't take care of your child, they get gutus (in case there are people out there who wonder what it means, its head lice).
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
wisdom tooth...
now that i have the help of one more tooth, i should be able to finish my food faster
^_^
^_^
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
杀风景
s: i feel like going to watch giselle in the park leh...
but nobody know how to appreciate, you go with me leh...
it's a love story about this.... ....
.... ....
very nice leh, very touching one....
you want to watch?
pq: but wait rain how?
s: -__-"
(for your info, giselle in the park is ballet under the stars at fort canning park... (i'm sure u know...))
but nobody know how to appreciate, you go with me leh...
it's a love story about this.... ....
.... ....
very nice leh, very touching one....
you want to watch?
pq: but wait rain how?
s: -__-"
(for your info, giselle in the park is ballet under the stars at fort canning park... (i'm sure u know...))
Saturday, March 15, 2008
stupid 的... 又被骂了lor...
the first thing on a weekend morning...
is to get screamed at...
if it's anyone else, i might have a chance at speaking up for myself
unfortunately, no such luck.
so, all i could do was to keep quiet and be bombarded...
so suay...
haiz...
suay week...
super uber suay lor this week.
suay until the bird become the chicken...
i don't know how many time must i repeat the 'suay' word to be able to express the intensity of suay-ness i've experienced this week.
is to get screamed at...
if it's anyone else, i might have a chance at speaking up for myself
unfortunately, no such luck.
so, all i could do was to keep quiet and be bombarded...
so suay...
haiz...
suay week...
super uber suay lor this week.
suay until the bird become the chicken...
i don't know how many time must i repeat the 'suay' word to be able to express the intensity of suay-ness i've experienced this week.
about time...
i thought it's about time i put and end to the adventure... and move on the next phase...
sometimes i can't really decide whether it has been an adventure or mis-adventure...
i guess i've gain some and lost some.
it's like not getting to eat your cake when you've already have it.
sometimes i can't really decide whether it has been an adventure or mis-adventure...
i guess i've gain some and lost some.
it's like not getting to eat your cake when you've already have it.
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